Suddenly you realise you are becoming an extrovert and you don't like it.

ConFusED

It's not easy when your mind fights with itself. Fragments of your past attacking your future, fogging your vision. It's so easy when you don't question. When you just do it because someone you care about said it's important. That it will pay off in the long run. You never questioned, never tried to drill down. But a time came when there was no someone. You were on your own. Still, there were voices leading you. Voices of fear, __, carving your way.

You know what they said is not wrong, but it's just not you. You don't wanna play it safe. You know what to do, but you are too afraid to lose. Drew's not helping either. He's just kept busy by the voices and when they fade for some time, he's happy. Gun pushes him to go after what he really wanted. He even takes the first few steps for the long ladder, but the voices are back again, dragging him down into the heard and the gravity of gear keeps him there.

Will he ever be brave enough to let go of the voices, will he be brave enough to find the whisper hidden in the heard or up the ladder saying come-on do it. Will be brave enough...?

wordCloud.R

Here are the top 20 words i've used on this blog since i started blogging.
Well, i didn't find anything out of the box, but still, it was a fun experiment!

Here's the script in R.

- Code courtesy Mihir Karkare <mihirkarkare9@gmail.com>

To my blog into a raw text file, i followed this tutorial.

My first YouTube upload!

Beauty and the Beast

They say, don't put your logic in Indian Movies(esp. South Indian ones).

When you see a sci-fi or some computer haking film, everyone dreams of being the hero/villain there. Cuz they are cool and then, life happens.
But do we need reality? Or is reality really reality?
A cliche in India is to get into a Science college and then Engineering for 4 years and then lost in a fucking job or the rest of your life... THE END!

Why do i see the best art circle in an Engineering college why is the majority trying for CAT and MS? You might argue, that they have the best technical event. Well yes, but a technical event is more about the right management. A true technical enthusiast is all about the fundamentals.
When you see a wire you are amazed by the electrons flowing through it. All those 0's and 1's flowing through when you see a cricket match. That's more thrilling than Kholi hitting a century. I''m not trying to judge my peers, but i'm just sad that they didn't get the platform they wanted at the right time. Why don't we keep a 'figure out your passion year' between 12th and college? Most people don't know what they want until 2nd year in Engg. later they fire out and the few flecks that really wanted to do engg are lost in the crowd.

Image a life where discussions are about whats inside a black hole, time travel, light, from the deepest and biggest secrets of the cosmos to the smallest of the atoms. There would be discussions about coming up with new ideas for solving real-life problems, not because it would look good on your resume, but because you'd really love it, you think it's beautiful and you'd like to make a change. There will be people working for passion than for money. For learning not for grades.
See i'm not saying that such a group needs to be a majority (that's an ideal case), but at least i'd be happy to find a single person in a fucking 3000 population sharing the same passion. I single person who's not here because of the society, who just smiles when people say no-no to studying what he loves, who might make fun of being an engineer just to get in a group, but deep down they know, they belonged here. Maybe there even might be someone just like that, hiding in the rocks with the fear of being called different or simply just too busy chatting about how they could crack a sexy network with his imaginary friend.

“You will also find that help will always be given at Hogwarts to those who ask for it.”

     — J.K. Rowling

P.S.: This post meant no offence to any profession. I've seen the best writers of my life and was fortunate enough to read their rough drafts and even completed works. Everyone is perfect the way they are. A picture looks perfect with different shades. Everyone thinks differently. The engineering college environment pushes you to think what you really want. Sometimes you find your talents when you are pressured into a mismatch and that's fine. It's great to have different ideas on the table. A great community with different thought process coming together in the best phase of their lives. I'm so thrilled when i see my peers performing so good in paintings, sketches, photography, drama! I love it and i truly respect it. You guys are really talented.

PPS: Not a pro writer, so please correct/ignore if i had made any mistakes, this post was written when my mind was arguing faster than my fingers. By the way... Merry Christmas 🎅🎄

:)

Atheism is a religion

Opportunity

So 1Cr it is! Congratulations sir! You are Hired. The HR held hand into a firm handshake. The smile on Dan's face was clear. As he began to leave the interview room though, it struck him.
So i agreed to work for someone else's dream for money?
Yes, you did! Red replied angrily.
Maybe, but the money is good, you can do whatever you want with it, Grey argued.
But what about your project? Does a TV selling brand's success matter more to you than your dream?
Well, that's what Sandy's doing, and she's like the best in the college? She can't be wrong. Besides everyone is so happy about the job.
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Okay, do it then. Dan took the sarcasm in Red's voice as a yes. THE END
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Alternate ending.

Okay, so want me to give it a shot? How am i supposed to explain this to everyone? I'd be a fool to reject this offer.

Okay let's say you take the offer. How would you imagine your life spanning out?

I'll work in one of the most lavish offices in the country. Free food, free WiFi and a bunch of smart people around. I can go on foreign trips and there's never a no when i see the price tag!

Does that sound good to you?
It sure does!

Well, what about when you work on your own project?

I will have to work harder. I need to search for people who share the vision and need to boss them around to work. I don't like bossing.

Go on...

I won't get my own office, just my small room with computer...But...

I'm listening.

I'll create something great... Something that makes a positive change. I'll have a reason to wake up each morning, to situp and open that black subl window knowing that what i do today might fetch a thank you form someone somewhere in the world. I'd scale and scale the project and when it's time to let go, i'd be proud of the change it made and will continue to make after i leave.

"So do you still want the job?", Red smiled.

That was a great interview sir thank you for the time but i can't take the job. Got some pending dreams to work on first :)

The defiant Nazi

P.S.: Of course Grey was not happy with the choice he had to do all the work, more rewiring of all those worker neurons every time, but in the end, it was all worth it.
P.P.S : I personally believe that working(being mentored) by someone who's already done something similar to what you are trying to achieve is one of the best ways to go. Although you must be smart and brave enough to withdraw at the right moment.